Lovechain
Love, what are you on?
I’ve been so down and out
And I just don’t feel I belong
Methadone and Hallucinogens
Can’t enhance how I feel
I’ve been so strung out on our love
That I don’t know how to deal
With your endless nights
And our pointless fights
And all the lovers that you claim
I don’t think
I want to be a link
Inside of your love chain…
You will let me down
We’ll go round and round
Love, why don’t you come down?
You’ve been so high and out of touch
And your methods are unsound
Benzedrine and Masculine
Might change the way I feel
You’ve been stringing me along
And it’s starting to appeal
I’ll follow you, no matter what you do
If you take away my pain
I may be the missing link
Inside of your love chain
You will let me down
We’ll go round and round
Night Dissolves
Nothing is resolved
And all our problems Are not solved
As the day ends
There’s nothing left to Say
And so we push it all Away
And we pretend
That it’s a new day
And a new year
With the same faults, the same fears
It’s hard to survive some nights…
Looking deep inside
For the place where fear resides
So we can heal
We both try to play
Our roles from day to day
But it’s not real
Cause it’s a new day
And a new year
With the same faults, the same fears
It’s hard to survive sometimes…
I don’t understand
What the universe has planned
So i sit still
In the moments as they pass
Not speaking of the past
Hard not to feel
That there’s a new day
And a new year
With the same faults, the same fears
It’s hard to survive sometimes…
The Reasons Why
I’m hurt
And you’re one of the reasons why
I won’t assert
Myself into anything right anymore
And I feel
That everything you’ve ever said
Wasn't real
And you know I’m easily lead to your floor
I don’t trust
Whatever I thought was love was lust
And now all of my thoughts I’ll ignore
All that you feel
And all that you are
Has left me with scars
And all of these
Misdirections and lies
Are some reasons why
I have walls
And I’m starting to understand
They’ll never fall
And nothing that I want matters at all
I’m cursed
For repeatedly falling for someone so perverse
And the pull in my heart
Makes it worse
All that you feel
And all that you are
Has left me with scars
And all of these
Misdirections and lies
Are some reasons why
I’ll give in
You know in the end you will win
And the healing will never begin
All that you feel
And all that you are
Has left me with scars
And all of these
Misdirections and lies
Are some reasons why...
Past
Oh my God, I can’t believe it's true
I closed my eyes and woke up to this view
The world has changed, but I’m still there
How I missed it, I’m unaware
Time, If you could stop right there,
And let me catch my breath somewhere.
Hey Past, I blame this all on you.
You’re too big now for me to run it’s true.
You stole from me, now I’m taking it back.
It doesn’t erase or change the fact,
That all I’ve lost, can be traced to you.
Who shot the gun, to start the race?
Who painted these lines on my face?
Who said we had to keep this pace?
It's like I’m always being chased.
Who shot the gun, to start the race?
Who painted these lines on my face?
Who said we had to go this fast?
Am I first or am I last?
I'm stuck in you, that's what they say.
I think about you everyday.
How you haunt me,
Always around me,
Pushing me away.
February
Standing in the rain,
You think of all the things that you can't change...
Stare into the sun,
You think of all the things you never won...
You hold yourself down,
And you grab a hold of something that’s not real...
You hold yourself down,
And you grab a hold of something that’s not real...
We hold ourselves down,
And we grab a hold of something that’s not real...
Yeah we hold ourselves down,
‘Til we grab a hold of something we can feel...
All I Have
I’m trying to let things go
And open up my mind
But the thoughts that are flowing through me
Are hard to define
You’ve tried to change The way I feel
And how I think about me
I’m thinking in another world you
Should just let it be
Just let it be…
You’re like a storm that swells
Deep in the heart of me
I believe there is another way
If you could only see
If you could only see
If you could only see
If you could see…
All you need
And all I have
Is too much to ask…
I’ve tried to live my life
The way you want it to be
But my life became more about you
and less about me
Less about me…
I’ve tried to organize my thoughts
and put them where they belong
But the ghosts that reside within me
Are much too strong
Much too strong
All you need
And all I have
Is too much to ask…
All that you want
And all I have
Is too much to ask….
Remain
Praise you
Please you
Thank you
Will you
Ever let this go?
Hate me
Hurt me
And life is
Crazy…
But that’s how we make this work
It doesn’t work anymore
I’ve closed down all of my doors
Use Me
Taste Me
Abuse Me
Then Waste Me
I just can’t take this any more
You laugh
I’ll cry
You ask
Will I
Take care of us? Take care of you?
Some things cannot Remain…
It’s time to start again…
Feel Loved
I wish I had the answer
I wish I knew the way
But the path were heading down
Is filled with pain,
Of yesterday
I love who you could be
If you would only try
I love who you should be
Instead you live a lie
Hope can be a savior
And hope can make you sick
Oh I know,
It's hard to hold on when the pain is thick
Someday, I pray
That we can all be real
And I
I want you to feel love
Yeah I
I want you to feel loved
Someday...
Someway...
Is this the life that you wanted
And how you want it to stay?
Yeah I know,
There's things we just can't say...
Someway, let's stay
True to how we feel
And I
I want you to feel love
Yeah I
I want you to feel loved
Someday...
Someway...
And I
I want you to feel love
Yeah I
I want you to feel loved
Always..
Always..
Your Secret Pain
Whatever it is your holding
Whatever you’re trying to hide
I can see this pain unfolding
This pain you hold inside….
And now I understand your reasons
And why you sometimes lie
I know you need something true to believe in
Instead of just getting by…
Instead of just getting by
Instead of just getting by
We’re all just getting by
We’re all just getting by….
You try to keep your thoughts together
Any way to ease the strain
And you do things just to make yourself feel better
But you always feel the same…
But you always feel the same…
Yeah, you always feel the same
…You always feel the same…
And all of the things
You’re trying to remember
Or forget….
Learning to live with surrender
And not regret….
I can feel your body shiver
When I’m lying next to you
And I know the loss that life can deliver
Because I feel the pain too…
I feel the pain too…
I’m just the same as you
I just keep mine from view….
Whatever shapes your vision
Whatever keeps you from sleep
And whatever holds your secret pain inside
You no longer have to keep….
And all of the things
You’re trying to remember
Or forget….
Learning to live with surrender
And not regret….
And all of the words
That were whispered
Were never real
Learning to find someplace inside
That you can heal….